The Only Truth to the Universe

Its that time of year again…ratting around the city looking for new adventure, opportunities, and experiences galore! I found myself the other day stumbling through a warehouse of anything you can name and came across a powder blue nighty that reminded me of my first night with Jerome. Ugh…just when I thought I’ve medicated myself through all those past memories. I’ve been clear-minded on a path of renewing myself daily and seeking higher meaning to my life.

I’m ready to take my life and career to the next level possibly being part of something that is actually meaningful and has power to change the world. I’m tired of the same ol’ stories about love, sex, abuse, gayism, heroism, blah blah blah…what about something that is the only truth to the universe??

I don’t know about you, but I’m tired of instant gratification, satisfaction and perpetual venture to look for the next big. What about something that’ll gratify you forever and ever?? I may have found it. . . but it is still a sliver of a seed yet to grow. I think we may all be looking for that big purpose. And trust me, even relationships will last for a while and satisfy you at the moment, but very few will last a lifetime. I’m done.

To be continued…Sachiko.

The Difference a Day Makes

I am finally opening up my box full of treasures. This is the feeling of being tempered…it is when I start a new job, show, cast, a new beginning…although it excites me to think that a new today is the beginning of the rest of my life! And because my ships never returned my treasures…My love for …. well….. let’s call him Tyrone… has never left me, and honestly I don’t know if it ever will leave me. Perhaps, is it even real?

The more I think about it, maybe it’s just in my head that at the time I was with him, I was trying to find meaning in my life, a new life, a new relationship, a new me. There is a cadence between me and the circle of life, a fresh new circle everyday, with high winds, bursting fire, and fresh green leaves growing on my hibiscus tree. Gary’s show is my second gig back into the industry, and I really feel that this is a fresh new start to building my relationship back—and my career itself. Had I not met Tyrone, I would’ve never been hired for this show. But more about him another time.

I am in a totally different place in my life now than I was a year ago, coming from a background of poverty, being homeless at one time, traveling like a gypsy and having never had a solid “belief system”. I remember eating bread and sugar, carrying it in the back of my pockets and as I starved I would break bits and pieces of bread to divide them up throughout the day to last. I figured bread, because it can expand in my stomach and sugar because it makes me high! How I love the high n sugar is a natural source of going through an intense bootcamp! Oh…and I forgot, a sprinkle of parsley flakes for my vitamin E nutrients for the day.

Also, I have a confession to make. The day of the audition, I had to cut out a cardboard piece from the grocery’s dumpster to attach onto my jeans so it looked like a pair of Guess jeans. It actually helped me out in my audition for this show. I remember the director telling me he liked my jeans! I thought…wow…it worked! I will never tell it was a piece of cardboard fake brand label until I make it to the Oscars one day.

What a difference today has seen, here I am, getting ready to start a brand new show, and possibly a brand new life with Tyrone.