I took the job, feeling like I NEED THE MONEY!!!
Well a few days into it, I remembered why I don’t like it, how my boss keeps me in a repressed little box, and is at this point just utterly degrading my full potential. His version of being direct is being ungrateful, while I’m performing miracles making wine out of water with 24 hour turn-arounds and he is still focused so hard on what’s wrong or could potentially be wrong that he makes you feel incompetent while all you are doing is the best you can, with the resources he has chosen to give to you. I’ve asked for better, he says no….apparently doesn’t understand the concept you get what you pay for, and the icing on the cake…is the few little things he tries to make me wrong for, was Actually in REALITY right & efficient, it just wasn’t HIS WAY, and I’m being made to deal with his fears, and anxieties for making promises to his client that HE can’t live up to. YET I’M AUTHENTIC IN MINE!
And this time I know it’s not just me. It’s time to be the “stars” we are meant to be!!!
And I’m finally promising myself, NO MORE! I’m walking through the terror of my final test.
And so I’m throwing my hands up in the air and asking whatever is out there….”tell me, what now?”
Please, give me a sign.